________________________________________________________________________________________ This blog entry is specially dedicated to someone who's always a good brother and a good friend, Andy Tan.

In loving memory always. Please R.I.P. We will always miss you dearly in our hearts.

Early this afternoon, i received a very saddened news from his mum today that he passed away peacefully at midnight yesterday. Ultimately, he lost the fight towards the battle for his cancer. All these while, we know that he have really been trying all his best efforts to win the battle as we have been through the tough times with him, accompanying him to see doc, for his treatment and all.

He's such a dear brother in my heart. No matter what he do, he's always sparing a thoughts for us, putting us first rather then of himself. Buying me meals when i was out of job and running low on cash not forgetting to mention of him giving us all the complimentary Golden Village tickets in which he even doesnt even selfishingly keep for himself to watch. (He works in Golden Village cinema hence the free tix).

Does all nice people have such short lifespan?

I was still intending to fork out money in making the arrangements for his funeral wake but alas, his mum informed that his body could not be kept and had to be cremated due to the illness. WHY?? When I didnt even had a proper chance to see him for the last time, to bid him goodbye, to tell him how sorry i am for the last time i met him i was a bit harsh in my actions and words just because i was feeling really tired rushing and travelling from a place to another.

I know i will have to be strong:-

1) Be strong in order to take care of his mum. Since i m the god sis of him, apparehently my godma.

2) Be strong so as not to let brother worry about me/us.

3) Be strong not to break down in front of godma lest she starts to think pessimistic.

I really have to be strong....

I really have to be strong....

P.S: Baby, i need you... physically and emtionally here for me. Tell me that you will be here for me will you?

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Dearest Brother in heaven,

I am at a lost of words right now... i know i have a lot of things to tell you about but i just dont know how to start and carry on from here. You left this world and us too soon without even giving us a chance to take a last good look at you, to talk to you about the many happenings around us, to make up to you for my harsh actions and words towards you last weekends making me feeling so much in guilt.

Kor, i am truly very SORRY for what i did and said. Please forgive me...

Looking back, it must really have been very hard for you to be struggling and fighting this battle. The feeling of helpless, lost and heart pain just came gushing down to me whenever i saw u in deep pain. I know u tried very hard to fight this battle as we have promised and hooked our little fingers that you will come and witness my ROM ceremony in upcoming September. At that point of time, you told me not to get angry with you in the event that you couldnt make it for my ROM ceremony. Not to worry, i wont get angry with you definitely. This is our little promise to each other. Yes, i m still keeping that promise to you i had with you.

I know you will definitely give us your utmost heartfelt blessings no matter where you are now.. because i can feel it.

I hope you are doing good and fine in the other side of the world right now. I m not sure if you will be able to see this blog entry right now but i know you will always be there watching over us, making sure to see that we are alright..

I will definitely keep this date in remembrance.

In remembrance of you as a loving, caring yet a crappy brother at times.

Signing off,
Elayne Chen Jiemin
PAST ♠ FUTURE

This blog entry is specially dedicated to someone who's always a good brother and a good friend, Andy Tan.

In loving memory always. Please R.I.P. We will always miss you dearly in our hearts.

Early this afternoon, i received a very saddened news from his mum today that he passed away peacefully at midnight yesterday. Ultimately, he lost the fight towards the battle for his cancer. All these while, we know that he have really been trying all his best efforts to win the battle as we have been through the tough times with him, accompanying him to see doc, for his treatment and all.

He's such a dear brother in my heart. No matter what he do, he's always sparing a thoughts for us, putting us first rather then of himself. Buying me meals when i was out of job and running low on cash not forgetting to mention of him giving us all the complimentary Golden Village tickets in which he even doesnt even selfishingly keep for himself to watch. (He works in Golden Village cinema hence the free tix).

Does all nice people have such short lifespan?

I was still intending to fork out money in making the arrangements for his funeral wake but alas, his mum informed that his body could not be kept and had to be cremated due to the illness. WHY?? When I didnt even had a proper chance to see him for the last time, to bid him goodbye, to tell him how sorry i am for the last time i met him i was a bit harsh in my actions and words just because i was feeling really tired rushing and travelling from a place to another.

I know i will have to be strong:-

1) Be strong in order to take care of his mum. Since i m the god sis of him, apparehently my godma.

2) Be strong so as not to let brother worry about me/us.

3) Be strong not to break down in front of godma lest she starts to think pessimistic.

I really have to be strong....

I really have to be strong....

P.S: Baby, i need you... physically and emtionally here for me. Tell me that you will be here for me will you?

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Dearest Brother in heaven,

I am at a lost of words right now... i know i have a lot of things to tell you about but i just dont know how to start and carry on from here. You left this world and us too soon without even giving us a chance to take a last good look at you, to talk to you about the many happenings around us, to make up to you for my harsh actions and words towards you last weekends making me feeling so much in guilt.

Kor, i am truly very SORRY for what i did and said. Please forgive me...

Looking back, it must really have been very hard for you to be struggling and fighting this battle. The feeling of helpless, lost and heart pain just came gushing down to me whenever i saw u in deep pain. I know u tried very hard to fight this battle as we have promised and hooked our little fingers that you will come and witness my ROM ceremony in upcoming September. At that point of time, you told me not to get angry with you in the event that you couldnt make it for my ROM ceremony. Not to worry, i wont get angry with you definitely. This is our little promise to each other. Yes, i m still keeping that promise to you i had with you.

I know you will definitely give us your utmost heartfelt blessings no matter where you are now.. because i can feel it.

I hope you are doing good and fine in the other side of the world right now. I m not sure if you will be able to see this blog entry right now but i know you will always be there watching over us, making sure to see that we are alright..

I will definitely keep this date in remembrance.

In remembrance of you as a loving, caring yet a crappy brother at times.

Signing off,
Elayne Chen Jiemin