________________________________________________________________________________________ I have been sleeping at around 4+am since the day I moved back to my own parents house.

Hate this feeling.. A good thing is I am currently not working at the moment hence not much of a problem/issue.

Updated my player song. I just love 黄靖伦... After watching the Channel U show <>, I just find him soo cute and real. A guy who looks silly but yet is still able to do sweet things that captures and melts a lady's heart.

The next song is by 倪安東-散場的擁抱. Despite listening numerous times, I find that I still can't get sick of this. Listening to this song makes me feel so emotional and reminds me of some of the past, especially "S".

I dunno why do you really have to "avoid" meeting me up, my smses to you even as a friend? You wouldn't have done that to me in the past. I am feeling so lost without you. You came into my life, accompanied to walk me out of my saddest moment of my life, bringing me all the laughter, sweet memories and even able to make me forget my past unforgettable relationship with my ex -boyfriend (B).

Unknowingly, I knew that you have already become an important part(person) into my life (heart) from that moment on. Losing you is akin to losing an important body organs... Please don't ignore or avoid me.... My life is in a complete mess and failure.

My work can never be smooth sailing - colleagues never seem to like me despite me trying not to offend anyone by doing my work silently, talking and interacting less etc.. School also sucks. Much as I tried very hard to succeed. Force myself to at least be able to graduate with a Bachelor Degree in Business to be on the same par as you. To be able to get into banking line to work alongside with you, but I guess all fails... Might fail my exams and end up being terminated by the school.

My family(husband's family) also doesnt seem to get along with them as well...

Seriously... I am really getting tired of all these... I want to give up...

If only you were here to help me walk me through this difficult time and moment of my life...

If only....

PAST ♠ FUTURE

I have been sleeping at around 4+am since the day I moved back to my own parents house.

Hate this feeling.. A good thing is I am currently not working at the moment hence not much of a problem/issue.

Updated my player song. I just love 黄靖伦... After watching the Channel U show <>, I just find him soo cute and real. A guy who looks silly but yet is still able to do sweet things that captures and melts a lady's heart.

The next song is by 倪安東-散場的擁抱. Despite listening numerous times, I find that I still can't get sick of this. Listening to this song makes me feel so emotional and reminds me of some of the past, especially "S".

I dunno why do you really have to "avoid" meeting me up, my smses to you even as a friend? You wouldn't have done that to me in the past. I am feeling so lost without you. You came into my life, accompanied to walk me out of my saddest moment of my life, bringing me all the laughter, sweet memories and even able to make me forget my past unforgettable relationship with my ex -boyfriend (B).

Unknowingly, I knew that you have already become an important part(person) into my life (heart) from that moment on. Losing you is akin to losing an important body organs... Please don't ignore or avoid me.... My life is in a complete mess and failure.

My work can never be smooth sailing - colleagues never seem to like me despite me trying not to offend anyone by doing my work silently, talking and interacting less etc.. School also sucks. Much as I tried very hard to succeed. Force myself to at least be able to graduate with a Bachelor Degree in Business to be on the same par as you. To be able to get into banking line to work alongside with you, but I guess all fails... Might fail my exams and end up being terminated by the school.

My family(husband's family) also doesnt seem to get along with them as well...

Seriously... I am really getting tired of all these... I want to give up...

If only you were here to help me walk me through this difficult time and moment of my life...

If only....